"your picture's on the wall, you haven't called..."
Made a new website because I suddenly felt like the other one was a burden. Oh I don't know. I enjoy getting attention, especially online, but getting nice comments and messages and followers on my other website started to give me anxiety. It's to the point where I can't even reblog something on Tumblr without actively thinking of the people who follow me. There's been a few times where I've thought "Oh God, these specific people are probably going to hate me for this." And I know it doesn't even matter because it's just the internet. My website was extremely personal when I started it. I gave out every detail of my life, even blatantly naming people I know, but when I started making pages that weren't related to my personal life, and I saw that people were enjoying those pages, I just began feeling so uncomfortable saying anything about myself. I originally considered making another separate, personal website over two years ago, but it never bothered me as much as it has recently. I've just come to really resent my website.

I have a lot to say, and a lot I want to do. I'll come back tomorrow. My keyboard is dusty. I'm going to sleep.

Anyways. A lot of people have such cool websites, I feel like mine is really shitty in comparison. That's kind of the point of this one being so minimalistic, I want to focus more on the actual content than aesthetics... I guess... I'd like to find a webring for suicidal websites, sort of like the websites by A.S.H. users or the ones linked on depressed.net, I'm over twenty years late for that. I can't imagine myself having any more interest in working on my main website. I may just finish up the pages I've started and abandoned, and maybe come back once in a while if I get the urge to make some huge fanpage for something again.

I wish I wasn't so pretentious sometimes, in the way that I let the things I love get ruined for me when a bunch of annoying people get into it too.